Your My Friend, Now I have a Spouse POOF GONE

Ive had two major thoughts that weighed on my mind within these past couple of weeks. Okay so first...

The ole, "I got a girlfriend/boyfriend now, so im going to disappear from the face of the earth syndrome". Listen I am all about love, and relationships... I mean hell, I have been searching for one myself for quite sometime now. There is just one difference between me and some other people I am acquainted with, on how they handle there relationships with their significant other and their friends. It just bothers me that your close friends can be so easily pushed to the side or forgotten just because you find a significant other. Honestly majority bring around an interest to their friends for their approval. And once the core friends approve I figure it would be completely okay to bring them around once in a while and enjoy a football game, or enjoy a night out to hang out. BUT now that you have had the friend approval you proceed to fade yourself away from your friends, not hang out and rarely give them calls or texts. In my opinion, it is not difficult to pick up the phone and give a text to your friends to see how they are doing once in a while. I am ashamed to admit i have one friend that is very good at doing this. I respect that so much. Those are the friends that I know will not completely phase away and actually be there for the long haul. Most friends mean well, but i think they get so caught up in their own worlds, that they dont see how it effects their other components of their world. It should be closer observed.

Hues of the Holidays

The Holidays come in some many different colors, shades and hues. The way I see it is that the holiday time forces you to put many things in your head. Evaluate family members, friends, co-workers and just about everyone. It sometimes brings out true colors of people and things. I'm becoming to realize this as my age increases. 


You can view holiday times in bright light colors and be very festive. But then the other side is the darkness. Which is by all means not easy to escape. Holidays can be one of the most miserable times for people. Loneliness, financial troubles, and even health issues are most amplified at this time. Which is why and how i think "New Year Resolutions" came about. Maybe to give people that sense of hope. So they may clean their slate and "start new". When in fact we aren't really starting anything new. We just think it, so we can re-comfort ourselves. I don't object to this remedy for the Holiday blues. I think its great for those it works for. For me? I don't think im going to give my self any resolution, I want to experiment with not giving my self any resolute thoughts of hope. This way I wont be disappointed. I say this now, but i do know i will inevitably give my self thoughts of hope, for its in my nature. Im not one to give up, and i usually get what I want. But lately, I have been failing. So i figured i'd try this method of trying to not give myself false hope. I'm sure this method will also fail, but maybe that will clarify to myself that i shouldn't ever give up having faith in myself... We will see now wont we.

Culture Clash

So I talked to this girl that lives in the U.K. the other night. We discussed what their vision is on Americans and I returned our visions on English people. It was very interesting and also quite hilarious. (There accents are funny) She pointed out why our accents are funny and it actually made alot of sense. But anyway...


The conversation was brought to upon how they perceive american women. And to tell you the truth it was quite shocking. They perceive MOST of them as materialistic, shallow and a bit full of themselves. This too me struck a nerve considering most of the women ive met in this area, are somewhat exactly that. Except of course for my few girl friends I have. Now im not saying its all the woman here (of course not). But from what I see, its an epidemic amongst them in the area where i live. I just thought this was an interesting topic that we came across as we were talking to each other. It made me start to think a little bit about what kind of woman i go after and why. I need to be more cautious about who i meet and where.


It also sparked a thought that i would really like to travel one day. Meet different people in different areas. I think im becoming a bit fatigued of the people around here. Their superficial attitudes and personalties have become cumbersome.   

Okay, So lets keep Track

The point of starting this blog is to keep track of everything that happens/happening in my life or just simples things that I find cool or entertaining at the moment. So therefore when i look back at these blog posts I can reflect on things that either bothered me at the time or inspired me. I think this might be an interesting way to hone in on who I am. What makes me tick-tock. And what makes me tick-NOT. Haha.. Lets see where this goes and lets see where it doesn't.