The Holidays come in some many different colors, shades and hues. The way I see it is that the holiday time forces you to put many things in your head. Evaluate family members, friends, co-workers and just about everyone. It sometimes brings out true colors of people and things. I'm becoming to realize this as my age increases.
You can view holiday times in bright light colors and be very festive. But then the other side is the darkness. Which is by all means not easy to escape. Holidays can be one of the most miserable times for people. Loneliness, financial troubles, and even health issues are most amplified at this time. Which is why and how i think "New Year Resolutions" came about. Maybe to give people that sense of hope. So they may clean their slate and "start new". When in fact we aren't really starting anything new. We just think it, so we can re-comfort ourselves. I don't object to this remedy for the Holiday blues. I think its great for those it works for. For me? I don't think im going to give my self any resolution, I want to experiment with not giving my self any resolute thoughts of hope. This way I wont be disappointed. I say this now, but i do know i will inevitably give my self thoughts of hope, for its in my nature. Im not one to give up, and i usually get what I want. But lately, I have been failing. So i figured i'd try this method of trying to not give myself false hope. I'm sure this method will also fail, but maybe that will clarify to myself that i shouldn't ever give up having faith in myself... We will see now wont we.
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